Slaying Dragons

     As I had mentioned in my last blog the last couple of weeks have been pretty tough. Last Sunday as my blog was completed and finally posted it felt like a large weight had been lifted off of my chest and I could breath again. As I began to write, certain things became clearer bringing out things that were really bugging me opposed to what I had believed the problem was. The realisation of the issues then made them much easier to deal with. This morning while working out though, I started even looking a little deeper.

     It was something that Master Brinker had said at Saturday's meeting that made me start questioning things. During one of our conversations of injuries and figuring out how to deal with them, he had mentioned that it was pretty easy to allow mediocrity in to your life when everything was going well. When everything was "easy" there were lots of the little things that get missed and sometimes you don't even notice. Then one thing leads to another, and another, next thing you know these seemingly small independent actions create circumstances that can alter your life in many inconceivable ways. 

     Six months ago, Sundays consisted of getting up at 4:40am and going to the gym. Get home around 6:30-6:45 and cook breakfast, usually scrambled egg whites maybe some fried roasted potatoes if we had them for supper on Saturday. By 8:30 we would be at Superstore doing the shopping for the week followed by two or three hours of food prep.

Below is an actual picture of our fridge from the other house.

     

     With too many other things on the go, insert many other excuses here, this fell off. This meant that any food prep that needed to be done, then had to be done as it was needed. Read that five times fast. This then made it way easier to say screw it and not do it at all. First it was suppers, even though I wasn't eating suppers most days during the week, I still managed to make something for everyone else. With no food prep done that turned in to using different variations of processed or frozen food, which then becomes eating out from time to time or getting take out. The good and bad of now living in town. Then comes either skipping the occasional breakfast or stopping at Tim's and grabbing a coffee and breakfast sandwhich.

     I had grown to be a pretty big advocate for close to source eating and the benefits that come with that and had somehow slowly gotten away from it. The difference that eliminating or at least reducing processed food makes on both your mental and physical health is amazing. The better the fuel the cleaner the fire. All of this then leads us to the current state. Feeling more stress instead of being able to deal with it. Being tired more than I should. Not being able to get up as early as I had grown accustom to. And finally missing some obligations that six months ago I would have never let myself do.

     Last week I had made the decision that April would be different. That I would force myself back in to the good habits that I had learned over the past couple of years. Reflecting on everything that was said at yesterdays meeting solidified this decision for me. 

     Being part of a team makes everything a little easier, and I would like to thank you all for that.